i dun understand why... i really dun. everyone at home is just so unreasonable. especially u! you blamed grandpa for everything, even when it is not his fault. he say ok, my fault. admited that it is when it is not, you will still show him that stupid face of yours. why?! what is he to you? a robot to vent your anger?! no one don't know that u are tired, people give in to you. once and again, u spoil the whole atmosphere... a dinner together. is it so difficult to just keep a smile on your face and appreciates everyone's hardwork?! why must only when small uncle come down to eat then you are willing to cook the most expensive and the most delicious fish? he don't really appreciate it also, a lot same as you. what you two do is to make people feel worthless, no one go against you two, but it doesn't mean that we are here for you to bully. i hate the way you treat people, hurt people's feeling, spoil everyone's mood. you become happy in front of ALL outsiders, showing your smile, which seems so fake to me,making yourself look so noble. you take credits, you thinks you din't make mistakes. i tell you, u are totally wrong. you are the one who is at fault most of the time. you can chat on the phone for hours, why can't i? you can stare at the tv for hours, n i'm only a 1 hour show (not everyday some more), why are you scolding me as if i had killed someone? you doesn't listen to me, give me no chance to explain at all, thinks that i'm a bad student in a bad school mixing with bad friends! N ONCE AGAIN, YOU ARE WRONG! you love critising my friends, think that i can never make it for all examinations and test. everytime the results are out you never bother looking at the good results but instead only the bad ones. so what?! at least i know i put in all my effort. you wasn't at home when i study, you concluded that i didn't study immediately when you see me.i had enough of you. yes, you treat me good, i won't forget, i will repay. but everytime you praise someone else in front of me, i hate you. you compare me with practically everyone, cousins, brother... i admit i'm stupid, what can you do? isn't my genes dad's? isn't dad's gene your's? nvm, forget about it. i had enough. you are not going to be in my eyes for all i care. just pray that i'll change my thoughts n feeling of you real soon, or you will see the rebellious side of me at home!
sry ppl. =) anyway, school rocks this few days!! i love it. haha. today was fun fun n more fun. sry shiwei, for bullying you. =) haha!! everything tat belongs to sw went missing today. n ok, guys helped her.. haha. but some guys made things worse.. xp. did our 'art-n-craft' again today.. final workpiece can be seen at xuanyi's blog. it's scary. but super hilarious.
my dad went overseas again. n mum is out with her 'fren' again... leaving us kids with our grandparents... i'm so going to ignore her when she come home... i hate her attitude...
k, i admit my attitude isn't any beta. but .. too bad, who ask us to be in the same family. anw, congrats korkor! for passing ur advance theory driving test. so happy for you. soon you will have a car. n jia you for a-level wors. u suppose to go university de. =)) n drive me to sku in ur car car. that'll be so cool la. omg!! lol.
gtg. bye everyone. =) 加油！！！
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will you ever return? life is so meaningless without you.|
Thursday, August 16, 2007
